SAD DEPRESSED

k i shall start from last post.. the next day, on sunday, i went out with my og ppl, to have dinner at sushi tei at paragon.. den we went to lucky plaza for some pool.. den after that most of them went home, left me, lewis, yingyong, yixi, and peifen, the onli gal.. we took lewis car to esplanade glutton makansutra to have supper.. den we slack ard abit, and lewis sent us home..
i felt very sad on mon, cos i saw one of my so called close friend friendster.. i tot we were very good friends.. but i tink it turns out otherwise.. cos of some small stuff here and there these past few weeks.. and i saw on his friendster, he put 2 other friend pic, but without mine.. y i upset about this is cos the 4 of us went to taiwan together, and he put 2 pic on his friendster, 1 each with 1 other friend, but neber put my pic.. i tink this show his priority on his friends ba.. he called mi for movie on monday, but i neber wan to go, partly is because i meeting 1 of my friend le, but mainly is cos i tink he doesnt treat me as a true friend, and also i think because he wanted to sort of repay me for not watching F4 on sunday, the day before the 1st day of orientation camp.. we supposed to watch F4 on saturday de, then he say he cannot go cos he got family dinner, then i was planning to just go with marshal and zw for the show lor.. but marshal say we go watch on sunday together lor, i say ok, and he say this too in maple.. but at night, he say he cannot go liao cos he watching show with his friends on sunday also.. wad is this sia, fooling us lor.. somemore he say the point is not whether he watching the same show with us and his friends anot, but because he dun wan watch 2 shows in 1 day.. and to think before the taiwan trip he can go watch with me and soonlee, then at night go back westmall and watch another show again with his friends.. this goes to showing his priorities on ppl..
den on tues, he called mi inside maple, but i ignored him.. den he called mi about 45 min later on msn, and ask y i neber answer him.. den i say everything i unhappy about him lo.. and he say its juz tt i too sensitive le.. nthg much 1... its juz friendster onli.. haiz.. i tink, its through small small little things that u can see a person heart and feelings.. small things doesnt necessarily is meaningless; on the contrary, the smallest things can haf the biggest significance.. haiz..
on tues, i had my 1st pageant training.. learning catwalk, the pattern we will be walking on the day itself.. i tink the person who is teaching us is gay, and he likes mi, cos he pay more attention to mi, and molested mi.. haha.. though i felt it tt way, i neber say tt out, til the girl contestants themselves tell mi we all ganna by him le den i tink so.. lol.. but heck la, we will be meeting them onli for maybe 2 more times, so it's ok lor..
den on wed night, i went out with lewis, yixi, and peifen to go zouk.. haha.. i bery bery long no go clubbing le.. we went there, and 2pid peifen neber bring her ic, so we took cab back to her home at tpy, and go back again.. lol.. the cover charge was $20.. we went in, i took a little sip of the alcohol, and we went dancing.. we met up with shihui and 1 other guy, and stick together lo.. dance halfway, shihui ask mi treat her drink, den we went to buy.. its some lychee martini or wad i tink.. quite sweet and nice.. den we went back dancing again.. wow shihui stamina is amazing, lol.. she always chiong 1.. den after tt, at 4am when they closed, we went to shell kiosk and they bought some drinks.. den i took cab home with peifen..
todae fri, i wanted to wake at 6am, cos got some engineering orientation talk at 9 am.. but i too tired, and i overslept.. and kelvin loke called mi at 830, heng ar.. den i bathe liao took cab down.. wasted $15.. den turns out tt the whole talk was boring sia.. and i went home after the morning talk liao, and skipped the afternoon talk.. haha..
tmr i meeting tw and krystal and hoi yan for some small meeting, and pass tw the taiyang bing i bought from tw.. and most prob i oso wanna watch movie also.. though now i still feel sad about losing a good friend, a very good friend whom i cherish alot, but i guess since the person doesnt really treat me as his true friend, no point in feeling sad anymore.. so.. i guess i will find more true and good friends in uni ba.. and hope the photoshoot on sunday will turn out nice !.. lol..