reconcile?

i forgot wad day was it already.. tink it was on thurs night ba.. or early fri morning.. ch pm me in maplesource forum and said alot.. mainly is about his acc empty and his a little explanation.. i logged in my mage and got marshal to return the stuff back to ch acc.. and den i log in my mage and msged ch alot.. i tink i trust wad he says and dat he wun hack me.. i was just always recalling the past, the times and days we had together.. i cannot believe he will do this.. so i belived his explanation.. i wanted to return his mesos that i took from him the other day but he din wan it.. he wan me to return when he finally found the person who sold him my stuff.. so nvm lor, i just keep it.. i felt so happy that day.. but i know time cannot be reversed.. all of us who play ms cannot be like last time liddat le.. no more friend friend play together le.. sighz..
anyway for ms.. i used his mesos and bought quite a powerful cromi, and i managed to pass all 5 60% scrolls on my pink flowered earring.. i am now more powerful than before, but i can neber be as happy as before when i got hacked.. and all these many events which transpired.. haiz..
my mum told me in the morning when i was sleeping that she won the first prize in 4d, though its only 2k cos she 'quan da'.. hahaz.. she gave me $100.. she gg overseas with my dad for about 8days and gg many ctries also.. mainly china.. i hope i can carry on my life happily, w/o much unhappiness anymore.. i dun dare to get too close to my work friends as well.. i tink they tink i very dao, dun talk much and go out with them and dun wait for them to go home together or go out eat.. its because i dun wan to be sad anymore by friends.. i shall try not to be too much into friendships for if something bad turns out, i dun wan to feel sad anymore.. i wan to be happy and happy and happy.. else its a waste of life..

working..

today i went to work with a very sad and down feeling.. i couldnt concentrate much.. wads worse was tw was not there cos he was on off.. and i was alone.. at lunch though joey asked me to go out with them, i did not wan to cos i wanted to be alone.. i went for lunch and many tots were in my mind.. den after my dinner shift i went home.. i just logged onto ms.. i feel so sad.. in the past there were always so many ppl online playing.. now it has decreased to so few.. i went to look at the many ss we all had the past few mths we were playing ms.. and i felt soo very sad.. those days are now gone.. forever not coming back.. i felt like.. sobbing.. haiz..

w0rk??

ytd i went to report for my work.. my interview at japanese dining sun was successful while ch's was not.. i tink cos my friend brought me in ba.. i went to report for work early cos i was suppposed to get my uniform on that day den start work liao.. den after getting everything, i dun have black leather shoes with me and they also neber tell me.. so the manager let me decide to come back in the evening to work or tmr den start work and i chose tmr.. so i went home after getting my uniform..
ytd was a saddenng day for me.. i excchangeed character with ch to play for a while.. den play a while later he say he got olympus but att 63 only.. den i logged off and go eat dinner.. when i logged back, ch was not online anymore and i couldnt see the olypmus in my inv.. so i logged in his and wanted to see it cos i tot he transferred it into his character.. at that time i felt a bit sad already cos if he really got the olympus and transferred it to his acc, it means he wanted it for himself.. i wanted to share ms this game with him, cos he treated me sooo good.. bought so many stuff for me and i was very grateful.. so i wanted to share my acc with him.. i dun care about the money.. if he tink i would want the oly for myself he wrong and wrong..
and when i log in his 3rd and final character wanting to see the olympus for myself, see whether he really so heng.. cos i train at cargo for so many lvl w/o olympus.. and i got a total shock.. wad settled next was total sadness and disappointment.. cos i actually saw my previous old stuff in his inv.. the stuff i got before i was hacked.. many ppl told me ingame dat it should be friend who hack me cos real hackers dun hack game money, they hack real money.. and also i neber type my login id when i play ms 1.. so even if got keylogger should not have my login id.. though i was a bit skeptical, i chose to disbelieve that my friends would do such a thing.. and now.. haiz.. i discussed with marshal and den i logged in ch acc when he was lagged out and transferred my stuff and his mesos to marshal.. den i log in my own mage and got back my stuff from marshal.. dat day, i tink everyone who play ms in my unit was online.. and i confronted ch but he denied.. i felt sooo sad.. i couldn't believe my gooooooooooood friend would do this.. dat night i tried to sleep but couldn't.. all my army experiences with ch came back.. i couldnt sleep well..
and still had to work full day the next day..

BUSY!

today wake up.. wah so many stuff to do.. first i caught my red tiger oscar out of the tank, den i drained the water out, den i took out ALL the sand and rocks.. tough work.. den wipe the whole tank.. and den after making sure its clean, me and my dad installed the new filter on it and den pumped clean water back in.. den its time for the upper tank liaoz.. i caught the pearl aro and put it on the bottom tank which i just cleaned.. den i caught out the 2 blood parrot and albino bichir and put it in a makeshift pail.. den i again drained out the water and cleaned the whole filter.. and then pumped clean water back in.. wah shag.. took about total 5hrs!!!
den jf came to my home and we together went to yishun fish shop and bought my rtg finally.. i released the oscar, blood parrot and sucker fish into the reservoir near yishun central.. jf took home the albino bichir for his own tank.. i went home and released the rtg slowly into its new home.. its not afraid at all.. swim with grace so easily and freely.. i love it!!!
hahaahahaha

ORD

wheee.. ytd i and the ptp ppl got our pink ic.. so good.. finally after 2years plus.. after getting it, i tot, wah suddenly so fast get liao ar.. i tot still got many stuff left undone sia.. lolx..
after getting it me and ch went to foodcourt to eat lunch.. i told him to wait for me to buy den he eat, but he still eat first when i was buying my food.. hmmph...
den after that go home liaoz.. wah.. freeman liaoz.. lol.. can do wadever i like liaoz..
today i went out with weiteck to go for some interview for next weekend heineken beer peddlar at stadium.. some rugby matches event.. think its quite a major event sia.. we went to some jap restaurant to eat our lunch.. den i went with him to international plaza for 1 of his job interview.. after the long wait he decided not to do it cos the salary was too low.. i also tink so too..
den i went home and just now went to the fish shop at yishun and finally reserved the rtg which i felt was very beautiful.. haha..

tues night

den while on the bus.. i really felt sad.. i received msg that tmr on off, no need to book in.. then i thought, if only i wasn't hacked, i would be happy for the off, cos that means i can play til very late.. and i would have played alot since last week friday.. so sad.. den i tot over it.. i tink i will accept cheehui's help.. help to get back some of my stuff.. and i continue playing.. but this time round, i will not take it so seriously anymore, machiam its my life liddat.. i will just play maple casually, for leisure sake and friends' sake only.. den i msged him, and he agreed to help me get my stuff.. den i reached home and slacked ard abit.. at about 8plus he msg me and ask me to login now.. but i went for a run and came back and realized marshal also msged me ask me to login, got my stuff le.. den after bathing i logged on.. i felt very grateful to cheehui.. den we spent alot of time taking screenshots.. den me and cheehui went cargo for a while and i go sleep le..
now, i still feel very grateful to him.. for maplestory, i will not care so much anymore.. just play for fun, without any seriousness into it.. play when free, and slowly lvl up.. and no more neglecting so many stuff like wad i did for the past 2 mths when i was obsessed with maple.. cos its just a game.. anyway this fri i will be getting my ic and i still waiting for the interview result.. if ok, i hope next mon will start work already.. den for maple is just play when free, not play and go to work with sleepy eyes.. hahaz.. thanks cheehui, u brighten up my day.. though i said i dun wan play ms, its a waste of time, but then somehow i felt pitiful that i just end it like that.. and had alot of mixed feelings for the past few days, now i can play maple as and when i like.. dun need to restrict myself not to play anymore..

tUes

today i booked in 9 am.. linshan called me 8plus asked me buy for him nasi lemak and i bought for myself macdonald sausage mcmuffin and tea.. den i remained in my civi in the office.. saw tern yuan in office at about 10plus.. he came back to do ffi.. den he called medical centre and they say his blood sample not ready yet so he cannot do his ffi today.. den i told him bout my maple story acc being hacked.. and he say he play his ragnarok for 1year already.. 2mths ago he also ganna hacked.. so that means he play for 8mths and den got hacked by ppl.. though on that day he also felt very sad, but no use wad.. he got over it easily and continue playing.. for me, i only played 2mth and 1week and got hacked.. its much easier for me to continue playing sia.. and for bingshun, his gunbound acc also got hacked before, and he lost soo much stuff.. but he still continue playing.. as long as u treat it as a game, and play it for leisure, not taking it so seriously, den play lor.. dun need to quit, or feel sad for ur acc being hacked 1.. i tink its quite logical sia..
den after my dental ffi, i msged chee hui to meet me at city hall station at 2pm.. i went home, took a bath, and went out to meet him.. but i still late by 15 min while he arrived on time.. haiz i always late 1.. haha.. and he always early.. and den we went for interview.. while waiting, tianwei asked me bout my maple why dun play liaoz.. den i tell him the whole thing.. he also very good.. he just a low lvl warrior, lvl 30+, but he still offered to help me.. his simple sentence, i help u buy back ur stuff lar.. wah i really happy.. though i know he dun have the money to buy 1.. but his offering is good enuff.. den he say he got friends lvl 50+ 60+ also, can help.. i'm touched.. but nonetheless i say nvm lar, dun waste time playing.. lol.. den for the interview itself, haiz, i cannot work full time.. cos the manager dun let me.. ;( he say permanent job for ppl not gg to study 1, but i gg ntu in july.. so cannot work full time.. only part time.. which is lower pay.. haiz.. sianz.. but nvm, cos there got my friend mah, and chee hui who went with me for the interview also found that he got friend there working as well.. just nice all of us sort of know each other, so good to work i tink..
den after the interview we went to raffles city.. walked about abit.. sat down at coffee club, and realized the coffee selection sucks.. so stood up and walked away.. lol.. felt quite paiseh.. den we went to the entrance starbucks there and bought coffee.. he bought oreo cheescake, while i bought coffee eclair.. den cheehui said today must drink coffee, tonight pia.. i tot is maple, but he say no, got champions league.. den just nice, play til 2.30am, watch champions league.. hahaz..
den after tt we went to search for bus stops for his bus and my bus and separated.. he gg to meet his gf..

book in mon..

today when i went into the office, i saw cheehui so early there.. he persuaded me the whole day to go play ms, so good.. wanted to help me get back most of my eq.. and also go scroll a good cromi and if he succeed, he wan me to come back and play.. and if fail den no choice.. and he also say if i ganna hacked again den no choice lor.. now just play again... they will help me 1.. so good.. but then.. i still hui xin and disappointed le.. if i go play again, the feeling will not be like before as when i played before ganna hacked.. its a permanent wound in my heart already.. somehow this game has impacted my life alot.. haiz.. anyway tmr i gg for job interview with my friend tw, at chijmes, a jap restaurant, as a waiter.. he say if work permanent jog 1mth is 1300.. 5half day work week.. the off day is random weekday.. i also dun mind.. cos nthg to do anyway.. dun wish to spend time at home playing games anyway.. earn money better..

2 mths of no bloggin

cos of wad? of maplestory!! i just kept playing and playing.. but til today, i guess i have much much much more time to blog rather than maple liaoz.. y y y? cos my acc ganna hacked ytd.. april fools day!! the farker took away all my eq, gold and bc ores... i was dam pissed off and sianz and sad.. for whole of ytd and today.. however, today after gg out with jf to see and buy his fish, and getting my motorola v80 in for servicing due to charging problem, and eating lunch with chin khiong, i felt betta.. realised i shouldn't play so much anymore.. no, wrong, is shouldn't play anymore.. wasted 2mths of my lifetime playing this online game, in the end gaining nthg from it, only sad emotions.. wad for?.. i feel my time is better spent on working better.. therefore, i shall not brood over this maplestory and get over with it.. wait for next sun, my ord date, den go find a work and start working fast.. den can get into uni with some cash to spare, other than my parents money..
hmm.. ording liaoz.. time really passed quite fast now tt i tink about it.. i used to want to ord fast, just like everybody else, but now .. dunno is miss or wad, but just feel a bit sentimental.. not really sad.. sentimental should be the word.. haha.. but i shall try to get over tt feeling soon also, just like maplestory, and get on with life.. which is work work and more work.. and in july, study and study and more study.. lol.. oh yar, not forgetting to go running and some weights training.. lol.. tada..